Mummy Daddy,I Love You.

MOVED.

Sat, 17 Oct 2009 14:28:15 GMT

Wanna know my new link for livejournal, ask me personally.

Stay tune.

Sat, 03 Oct 2009 02:51:54 GMT

I'm moving to another link very soon. This livejournal will just be abandoned as there are some awful memories in it. I will give all of you the link soon. (: Stay tuned alright?

[Edited]
I might not post much but I will be quite active on some other sites. I will post up the links that you can visit which I'm active at.

Syawal '09

Sun, 27 Sep 2009 04:56:01 GMT

Raya this year was better than I thought it would be.
Relatives are getting more bonded than before.
And this time, there is 2 paparazzi where there will be unglam pictures of us taken by them.
That is what paparazzi do anyway, taking unglam pictures of us.
If you're lucky, you get to see all the pictures. If you're not, then too bad.
Love you guys so much. <3
I will upload my family photo soon.

Mary Jane

Sat, 19 Sep 2009 17:14:40 GMT

Yesterday is the last/saddest day of Ramadan. I will miss fasting.
Today, I have to wake up at 6 as my family will be going to the Masjid Sultan to have Hari Raya prayers.
Will be wearing a light pink dress, black mary jane shoes, pink scarf and a small bag. Not sure about accessories. Might be wearing red lipstick.
I love shopping for those stuffs but I am not looking forward to celebrating it.
As usual, it's because of there's no presence of my late great grandfather and cousin.

The exams are coming and raya will not be as great as we wanted it to be. We have to focus on our studies now.
When raya-ing, I have to face the 'old' people asking me what secondary am I now and guessing who am I as 2 of my other relative almost looks like me just because I wear a scarf. Like day-erm.

About studies, I'm lost actually. I really can't get anything inside my brain. I need help!
There are too many things to absorb and this papers, I have to do well. It's the end-of-year papers and I really want to have good results.

Lastly, Selamat Hari Raya and I'm shivering right now.
Night!
PS I miss you and regret for not saying goodbye.

HAIR-LO.

Sun, 13 Sep 2009 09:53:52 GMT

School tomorrow and this holiday, I have been thinking whether I can have a better time in school than I had before. Can I? I just wish that my classmates are those girlfriend type and not the _______ type. Whatever. Homeworks halfway done but I'm that I did study for this holiday just that I spend more time on sleeping and reading my book. Talking of book, I need to go to the library. Anyone who wants to company me?

Anyway, Hari Raya is next Sunday. I really am not looking forward to it. I have about 3-4 new Hari Raya clothes this year and I still have not bought my shoes yet. Would have gotten it last Friday but for some reason, I didn't get any. Do not want to talk about it. Thinking of getting a high heel. At least once. Wanted to get it from Charles and Keith but the heels are not the ones I want. So, I ask Alicia's opinion on it and she told me to find them at Far East or Bugis. I'll see how.

Anyway, have been having some problem with my hair right now. It's really dry and frizzy and I really do not know what to do. I asked Alicia on tips and stuffs because she really have a nice hair and I hope it did really help me. :D Thank Alicia.

Serious bitch.

Thu, 10 Sep 2009 17:38:51 GMT

You really are getting on my nerve.

Zulaikha

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 18:16:13 GMT

Happy 17th Birthday Zulaikha!
Even though we're not that close, I still take you like my sister. Goodluck for your o level. I knwo you can do it. Anyway, I'm really sorry about your mum. I hope she gets well soon. Love you. Mwah!

Nur Arifah

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 17:46:22 GMT

Happy 16th Birthday Nur Arifah!
Even though we just know each other this year, we are close sisters now. I really am happy to have a senior like you. I hope we'll be closer and have a long friendship together. Goodluck for your o level. I know you can do it. I believe in you. Love you now and forever. Mwah! AND AND last long with Danial! *wink wink*

I have to get something for you but I don't know what to get.

Dear mummy

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 12:34:09 GMT

Do you ever put yourself in your 'mature' daughter's shoe? Do you ever?

Dear mummy
No matter how old or mature am I, you still have to understand and care for me like you do when I was very young. I have sacrifice a lot for you and you can't do for me a small flavour. You even compliment brothers and sisters more than me. I know mummies knows better and stuff but when can I come to you and talk which will not make you lecture but just listen to my problem? I really need a listening ear and not a mouth which opens and close with words coming out which goes like a machine gun. I have been studying hard for you and getting BETTER results than my brother, you still do not care about me as much you care about brother. And do you still remember what brother has done that embarassed you to the whole big family? Do you still remember? You may think he have change. Sure. He shows that he goes to the mosque everyday but you will not know what he does behind your back. I am not accusing him for doing something bad but I just don't want you to regret for what you have done. Caring about him and ignoring me. I'm telling you, I will be the one who you will need. He does not have that good result that will be helping you in the future. I hope he will care about his studies more in the future than he is now. I care about him too okeh? You're lucky I do not have that heart to make me not care about you like what you did to me now. I really love you and I make sure I will not do anything that will make me regret.

This is real and not some jokes.

Nurul Syahirah

Tue, 08 Sep 2009 05:28:02 GMT

Happy 17th Birthday Nurul Syahirah!
I hope you will have a great day today. Last long with your boyfriend, Azri!
The full wish is in the message I sent to you yesterday. Haha
You know the reason why right? Tee-hee
Love you. Mwah!

Effa Nurfariza (6/9)

Tue, 08 Sep 2009 05:17:36 GMT

Happy Belated 15th Birthday Effa Nurfariza!
Sorry I did not post this up on the actual day.
I wasn't on the computer.
We've been friends for already 9 years. I'm glad that everything between us goes smoothly and there's no quarrels and misunderstanding between us. I will do whatever I want to make sure that no one else could ever take your place. You're different from other people whom I know. You always cared about me that I feel really safe. Your crap and jokes always make me laugh. It never fail to make my day. Even though we're in different school and live at the other end of Simei, we still contact each other and make an effort to meet each other. I'm really sorry if I always makes excuses but it is not a lie. I really am not able to meet you. You will be treasured till eternity and you will never be forgotten. I'll make sure my mum won't forget you too. *wink* I love you now and forever. Mwah!

I still have to meet you. I need to give you the cards I made for you. :D

Survive the fall.

Mon, 07 Sep 2009 16:44:07 GMT

Tutorial was just going through of the experiments worksheet and doing exercises on the experiment.
Followed the girls to the toilet and those no life guys went to sit near the toilet waiting for us.
Wait, it is actually me. Hahah i feel honoured.
Arun pulled me because he wants me to run away from them.
Sign out then went to meet Kaishi.

We then headed to Ehub to have our brunch together. Nicholas followed us too.
I feel great having lunch with them. It was filled with laughters.
I wish it will be that way every now and then.
Arun and Nicholas went separate ways.

Walked to Whitesands with Kaishi to just return my library book.
We then went separate ways.
Walked to Bik Etah's house and tutored Zikry.
It was kind of funny though today. It feels really different from other days.
I guess it's because their dad is around. Hah

Mummy called to go Geylang and I felt happy.
Don't ask me why because I don't know. You can call me weird if you want to. *wink wink*
(I don't know what's with the ' *wink wink* ')
Walked around-in school uniform-and see the clothes.
I didn't get to buy anything but my brother did.
I am the one who ask my mum to go there. Ne-ver-mind.
Maman fetched us and went back home.

Been texting Taufiq non-stop for don't know what reason.
Nevermind Taufiq, you just watch out. :P

Little Wall Games

Mon, 07 Sep 2009 15:34:05 GMT

I made this because it will be easy for me to upload pictures that are taken and are related to my life.

Just happen to find this.
I feel like spreading it. *wink wink*

First Daughter.

Sat, 05 Sep 2009 09:24:10 GMT

It's a nice story/movie. I recommend you all to watch it. I cried at some parts of the movie. I really knows how she feels. I first knew this movie when it was shown on air on channel 5. I didn't get to watch it till the end as I have to go somewhere else. I guess it has been one month then I remembered about it. Luckily isn't that sucky. The guy is cute. (;

I want a slumber party,

Sat, 05 Sep 2009 06:23:33 GMT

at least once.

The holiday has arrive and what I think I'll be doing is just studying to revise on all the topics I have forgotten.
Exams is just in 3 weeks time which is damn fast and I don't know how am I going to get help with the questions I do not know how to answer.
I hope when I ask some of the teachers, he/she can help me. And also, I can't be shy.

To the N level people, especially Zul, goodluck for your papers and go and study!
Better to hear good news from you or I'll haunt you for the rest of your life. hah
Bye! (K)

Freda Nur Deanna

Sat, 05 Sep 2009 04:00:16 GMT

HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY FREDA NUR DEANNA!
I can't believe I forget your birthday.
This is all because we didn't meet each other for like almost 1 year?!
Anyway, I know you had a great day on your birthday.
Have a great life and do not be sad always alright?
About you and your ex, I know you guys still have the luck to be together.
I know you both will be a cute and long-lasting couple.
Just think positive and do not give up easily.
Remember, I'm a phone call away.
I hope we get to meet soon because I seriously miss you.
If it's possible, I would love to meet you right now under our block and give you a big hug.
You don't know how much I miss you that I can even cry.
Love you. (L)

I just need a night light.

Sun, 30 Aug 2009 04:14:29 GMT

It will be perfect for me.

Sun, 30 Aug 2009 03:09:11 GMT

I always do that, thinking of you.

Sun, 30 Aug 2009 03:06:49 GMT

Never again.

Thu, 27 Aug 2009 12:36:19 GMT

Don't think I am the old me again. I hate it and don't think because I have a freaking phone, it means I will be the old me. It doesn't make sense and one more thing, don't assume. I just wish I can just do something to make you think. You always say us but do you refer it to yourself?

Piled up!

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 10:43:58 GMT

I have been on the laptop for 8 hours.
After the previous post, what I did was doing heymath.
Heymath is that difficult that it took that long to complete.
Wait, it is not complete. I just leave it blank because I do not know how to do it.
And that amound of time, I only did one task.
There is another task which I am doing now.
In a few more minutes, I'm going to break fast and the amount of time I will take will be about 1 hour because I have to eat, clean up the table and pray.
After that, I have to complete heymath and then, continue with studying for test.
I still have not prepare for school. Iron clothes, packed bag and etc.
I don't know what time I will be in bed. I hope I will have enough time to sleep because I have to wake up at 5 to have my pre-dawn breakfast.
I just hope things will go smoothly.

I was so bored that

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 05:24:42 GMT

What I did since I was on the laptop early in the morning are:

-Bloghopping
-Chatting (apparently, the other started the chat instead of me)
Watching videos (whose line is it anyway)
Camwhoring using the webcam

Even I have been those things, now I am getting bored all over again.
Can anyone suggest me things to do other than sleeping?
Wait, I have to study for my test tomorrow and do heymath. Damn.
And do geography project that is suppose to hand in by next week.
And me, being a kind soul, I am doing it for my groupmates.

Bad day

Wed, 19 Aug 2009 11:25:49 GMT

for three days straight.

I just don't get why must it be till that bad.
Three days straight, I had a bad day.
I guess it is because my best friend, Kaishi, is not around.
To my other friends, don't think I don't appreciate you guys but I had bad days straight so suddenly.
I never had a bad day till this bad.
How I wish you can come back by tonight.

I am suppose to stand in front of the whole school to give the award because Ms Tok sprained her ankle and I do not know out of a sudden, I cried.
All thanks to me for thinking about what happened yesterday.
Ms Tok thought I cried because I was force to do the giving the award but no.
Told her I had a bad day and she asked me to call Wenny.
Cried when I get to my seat because Wenny kept on telling me to stop crying.
To you guys who don't know me, I am sensitive when people asked me to stop crying.
I will tend to cry more by then. And if I am really upset on something, I will start to cry.
So, to those who wants to cheer me up, don't try doing so. Thank you.

At the end of recess, settle some problem and it almost end up into a big fight.
The girl just didn't notice something she said to us.
She said something that was totally wrong.
I don't wish to elaborate more. That adds on to my bad day.
And geography, thanks for my bad day ytd, I totally forget about it.
And Ms Tok, please stop with your lame jokes. It's not funny.

Meet Sofia after school.
We went to Macs first and we told each other stories that happened the past few days.
And Sofia thinks that we spent a lot of time eating.
Then we went to the library.
Studied Physics and I really did try my best to answer the questions.
I can't believe it but I really did it.
Leave the library at about five and Sofia decided to take twelve because she find the bus number seventeen irritating.
While waiting for the bus, I told her the dream that Arun dreamt of.
The dream was so funny that she even laugh.
I bet this dream can really make people's day. Thanks Arun for the dream.

Reached home and mummy called and said she is not in Singapore which means I have to take care of my siblings. Damn.
Nevermind. Since it is for my mum, I will do it for her. Take care over there alright? And come back home fast and safely.

I still owe Izzul present.
And I have to buy presents for Effa and Arifah.
Is there anymore birthdays?

Never thought I know you that well like you thought I know.

To Effa,

Mon, 17 Aug 2009 13:26:40 GMT

I'm desperate to meet you.

I had the worse Monday today.
People calls it Monday Blues.
And I think it is the worse Monday Blues ever.
I never thought it would turn out that bad.

This is what happened that cause me to have the Monday Blues.
I had to go to school by myself because my close friend, Kai Shi is away for Outward Bound Singapore(OBS).
Just feels so unlucky.

Alighted at school's bus stop instead of the previous bus stop.
Went to school straight and it was so early.
Needed the toilet and it was scary as the school is still dark and there are not many people.
Soon, headed for class and listen to songs and revise for Geography.
Did the national anthem, pledge, school songs, temperature taking and reading period in class.

First period is CD and as usual, boring. And the main thing today is about feelings.
All of my readers, do not make your choice because of your feelings. Get what I mean?
Don't regret later like my teacher.
Geography was fun because I sat beside Arun and we laughed because of some things.
Malay was next and there was a test.
I know I am not going to do that well because I fell asleep while reading the comprehension and I can't stay awake for the rest of the test. I know I am not going to do that well.
Meet Joey near her Mother Tongue classroom.
Went to the canteen and ate chicken sandwich and tofu.

Headed back to class and had Physics.
It was a little boring because Kai Shi wasn't around but Arun make it more lively.
Was a little bit lost and I feel good asking Mdm Quek the questions I don't know.
Last lesson was Maths and had a test.
I forget to study the other stuffs and I miss understood the questions. AHHH!
Another test that I am going to do badly.
That is why today is a Monday Blue for me but that is not all.

Then, stayed in class since Joey wants to revise Geography a little before going to English tutorial.
But then, Ms Shaheedah wants to meet Joey because she treat them pizza because they did well for their test.
Then, headed for English tutorial.
Did on comprehension. Don't understand a lot of words which is kind of high vocabulary. Sigh.
Soon, it is over and we head back for class to have Geography tutorial.
But instead of tutorial, there is a test.
Did the test and while was doing 3/4 of the question, had a cramp.
Couldn't think and just hand up the paper.
I think I am not going to do well for the test too.
That explains why I had Monday Blues.
Three test in one day and everything has a reason to why I am not going to do well.

Went to central and bought bubble tea.
Talked to Joey about some stuffs and it was touching.
I had a cramp so I didn't really reply anything to her.
But when I was in the bus and I felt better, I text her and said thanks and stuffs.
I love you Joey Ng Zu Er.<3
Reached home and read my book all the way since I do not have any homework.
I think I have but I don't have to pass it up the next day so I don't care.

I just hope this won't repeat.
Keh bye.

Miracle of I____.

Sat, 15 Aug 2009 15:32:38 GMT

I will post about what happened on Friday and today.

Friday
Chemistry was boring.
Actually, it is almost every lesson, it is boring.
As usual, I will hope the time will passed by faster.
Mother Tongue, combine class with another Mother Tongue class.
And for that day, slacked almost the whole time.
Did the worksheet, daydream, went to the toilet with Sarah, talked and watched the secondary 2 played PE, gossip about some people, go back to class, talked about some stuffs and soon, Mother Tongue is over.
What happened at the last part of the lesson was funny.
I am lazy to elaborate on it.

Social Studies, did on the new topic and actually, I didn't know Ms Shaheedah started on a new topic until I got home and revise.
Damn, I have to read on the topics because I don't understand.
One time, I miss part of the tutorial and now, I didn't know she start on a new topic.
Last part of the lesson, Ms Shaheedah gave us some tips on what to study for O level.
She told us that every year, she was lucky because the question she taught her class, it came out.
I hope she will have luck next year too.
And from there, I don't know why I am suddenly scared of O level and I promise myself to study the whole weekend.
Apparently, I only promise for this weekend and not other weekend.
Recess, just drink HL chocolate milk.
Talked about someone and went to AVA for maths.
Thanks to the revision I had the previous night, I understand trigonometry better.
I hope I won't be lost on it suddenly. I hope so.

Then, went back home with Anne.
Her phone spoils in the toilet.
On the way, we decided not to go home straight so we went to Downtown East.
Went to McCafe and drank Double Chocolate.
The bloody worker there is a bitch and I hate it.
Assume things anyhow when he doesn't know what actually is happening.
Then, we walked around there and soon Anne decided to head back home.
Walked to Anne's bus stop and on the way, Anne plucked flowers.
I asked her to pick one of the flowers and blow.
Apparently, the 'leaves' flew. Nice one Anne.
You should take a picture of it.

Went to my aunt's house and taught my cousin his homework.
Halfway through, something went wrong and I felt like crying.
Only some people know what happened. Wait, I think only one person.
Then, went back home with brother, crying.
Revised on maths. I think.
And went to sleep because my chest hurts again.

Saturday
Followed mummy daddy to Eastpoint.
They went there to make my sister's spectacles because she lost her spectacles.
Apparently, the shop is not opened yet and Daddy went to work.
Salam-ed and kissed.
Went to popular and bought printer ink.
Meet Nek Nah and my brother at KFC.
While eating, Nek Nah told her about what happened the previous day.
I will tell what actually happened at the end of the post.
Then, went to buy food for my brothers at home.

Fell asleep and then got ready to met Intan.
Meet at Tanah Merah platform and train-ed to Airport.
Told some stories on the way.
Walked to terminal 3 McDonald but it was full.
So, we head to terminal 2 and it is still full we decided to buy a drink and sit somewhere and study.
A few weeks or days ago, I realise one of my weakness which is, I will only do my homework and when I'm done with it, I will not study and just see what people are doing or daydreaming when I am with someone.
I have to stop that and apparently, I really studied just now and asked for help from Intan.
At about 6, we left.
Intan was meeting her sister to go to town and I am going home.

Went to Eastpoint NTUC to buy the stuffs my mum need for the event that is happening tomorrow.
Reached home and studied.
See, I was studying non-stop.
I studied from about eight to eleven. So, it means I studied for three hours.
Wow, not bad hah?
I think this is the first time I studied that long. Without anyone with me.
I hope I will keep on striving for my goal and do it everytime.
While studying, was thinking of some stuffs till I cried.
Only Intan knows what happened. Sigh.

Okeh, now about my grandaunt, Nek Nah story.
She had one of the symptom that may lead to cancer.
Yesterday, she informed her brothers and sisters that she is going to operation.
She was warded and the nurses has already changed her.
Soon, she was brought to the X-ray room.
The nurse checked and after a few minutes, the nurse called another nurse.
They coulded find the 'thing'.
Then the nurses called the doctor. The doctor too can't find the 'thing'.
And the doctor called the professor. And the professor can't find the 'thing' too.
The professor told my grandaunt that the thing is completely gone.>All the people there clapped their hand and kissed her faces.
She said it is like Hari Raya. Wow, having a scary time and soon, it became a happy ending.
Then, the money they have given, will be returned and not a single money is needed to be paid.
What a miracle right?

I assume again which is not good.